Monday, February 28, 2011

I Have Nothing, Julie Cozens

I Have Nothing
by Julie Cozens


I have Nothing



Nothing new to feel
Grief mows me down
I dodge it sometimes
Today I didn't try
The Anniversary day

Nothing new to say or blog
It has been said, written
Fading now to forgottenness
Greeting card genuine
Trauma obscured

Nothing new to show
Photographs, movies
No birthday cakes
First steps, smiles, teeth
Baby onesies never outgrown

Nothing new to hear
No laughter no cries,
Nor the sound of his name
His running feet
All quiet in his grave

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about this piece.
It's Thomas' Anniversary today. It's been 3 years. I quickly jotted down my thoughts this morning, I was thinking about the nothing of today. If I don't drive his remembrance then it will fade into nothing. That there is nothing new, except the milestone of 3 years since he died. Its actually not even his anniversary today, its the 29th February which only comes every 4 years. I have decided to mark his anniversary on the last day of Summer every year, because he died on the last day of Summer 2008, February 29th. - Julie

about the poet.
Julie Cozen's son Thomas was born in October 2007. In Julie's words, "I was 42 years old, I was already the Mum of three children, aged 11, 21 and 23. He was born with many health challenges and needed surgery to save his life. He was just not well enough to survive the surgery. Thomas died aged 135 days old in February 2008. I am trying to live around my broken heart." 


Remembering Thomas today with his family.

8 comments:

  1. Thinking of you and your family today. Thank you for sharing this poem.

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  2. Thinking of you today. I'm so sorry.x

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  3. Remembering Thomas with much love.
    xo

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  4. Thinking of you and your family today. Thank you for sharing this poem

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  5. remembering thomas with you today, julie. xoxo

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  6. I can feel the anguish in your words. The emptiness is overwhelming, isn't it? Thinking of you and your beautiful Thomas... He is such a sweet little boy.

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  7. What a beautiful mom and baby. I wish he was in your arms today. Thank you for sharing him with me.

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