I am a Mom
by Jennifer
I am a mom, and yet...
my home is quiet and well kept,
you will not see any toys in the yard
or laying on the steps.
I am a mom, and yet...
here you won't find bottles or any bibs,
you'll never hear laughter from any of my kids.
I am a mom, and yet...
I get to sleep uninterrupted through the night,
no 3 am feedings anywhere in sight.
I am a mom, and yet...
no ring around the rosy or playing patty cake
a birthday cake with candles, I never get to bake.
I am a mom, and yet...
day or night, I can do anything I want to do
except what I yearn for most, be a mother to you.
I am a mom, and yet...
my arms are so very empty, as is my heart
I still cant believe that we were made to part.
I am a mom, and yet...
in Jesus arms is where you're laid to rest
joining you there now has become my quest.
I am a mom, and yet...
you left so quickly and out of the blue
never whispered hello, only goodbye to you.
I hope that love from me is all you ever knew.
I am a mom, and yet...
I wish I could wrap my arms around you & hold you tight
but I know that you're safe and happy, warm in heavens light.
:::
about the poet.
Jennifer lives in southwest Iowa with her husband and yellow lab, Daisy. In Jennifer's words, "I am the mother to two very special angels. My son, Bryston Ray, was born still July 24, 2009, at 28 weeks gestation due to a placental abruption. My second angel, Peanut, we lost at 10 weeks gestation due to a fetal heart defect on December 21, 2009. My husband and I are in the process of trying to conceive. I work as a SCL Specialist caring for the disabled full time." Jennifer write the blog The Blue Sparrow.
I can relate, Jennifer. Childless motherhood is a particular type of evil.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you for your losses.
xo
Very touching. Childless motherhood breaks my heart each day and keeps my arms searching for that soft little body to hug.
ReplyDeleteTouching indeed...very much how I feel. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteVery touching indeed. You are a mum, sorry you have not been able to experience the joys this brings, only the pain of not being able to Mother your babies.
ReplyDeletePeace and Healing
That was such a wonderful poem!
ReplyDeleteThis is such a fabulous poem-- you have really captured what it feels like to be a mom... but not have your child with you. I'm never sure how to check the box for "number of children" on forms at the doctor's office or on surveys or to answer the inevitable small-talk "so, do you have children?". Thank you so much for sharing your poetry, and please know that you are not alone in this lonesome journey.
ReplyDeleteWhat a powerful poem.
ReplyDeleteVery strong poem- the loss permeates the piece so well.
ReplyDeletethank you for sharing your beautiful poem with us
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